Thursday 20 October 2011

My Dream Boy


I found my dream boy
Yesterday night
He had your face
But he wasn’t you
Because he loved me

He told me
Love is very difficult
Everybody cannot love
So learn to forgive
I forgave you

For leaving me alone
For not loving me anymore
For not keeping up to the promises
For not forgiving me

But I couldn’t forget you
Though my dream boy loved me
He told me I don’t need to forget you
And I got a smile on my face
His words lighted a hope in me

But he meant to say that
I didn’t need to forget you
On the day of our anniversary
Because I had spent one year loving you
With everything I could
Why would I have needed to cry
Yesterday, I needed to celebrate
Just because I have always loved you

Yes he was my dream boy
The type of boy I had always wanted to get married to
But so what? I don't need him.
I am in love with you.

But he made me realise the meaning of love.
Love is not about being loved
It is just about loving.

And now just to let you know
I don’t hate you. I could never.
I still love you more than the yesterdays
Happily, with a real smile on my face.
As I know I will always love you.

I used to say that I can never live without you.
But what do I do if you are still in my heart?
I will never try to kill myself.
Because I fear you sheding tears for me.

I will enjoy my life, do everything I want to.
I need to keep myself happy
Because I have to fulfill some dreams
Which aren’t mine, not even yours
But the ones which are ours.

Yes he was my dream boy, the one who came in my dreams yesterday night.
He loved me but he taught me how to love. You.